I looked every where for it.

I thought it was in the approval of my parents, my teachers, my coaches.

I thought it was him, in the way he loved me, in his approval of me, in his attention on me.

mmm and then when I had given up on it, I thought it was at the bottom of a bottle, or the sweetness of a snack… I thought it was somewhere outside of me.

And then in one moment, of deep surrender, ASKING for answers to life’s most sought questions… ‘why are we here?’ ‘what does death feel like?’ ‘Where do we go when we die?’…

I found it within my own being.

I found it within my own heart.

A love SO BIG it had to burst me outside of myself as it covered the entire world.

I disappeared in to the waves, in to the sunset, yet distinctly I remember still being individual.

I experienced A love SO BIG.

A love that expands

A love that empowers

A love that surrounds and permeates through ever single atom of this physical reality.

Power and Love. That is what I felt.

I lived in a very strange place for a few years after that.

I’m mostly adjusted now.

Sometimes, I still find myself looking for it outside.

and then I come back in to the realization

that it’s always been inside of me.

Inside of you.

This massive love.

Where we all come from.

And where we all will return to.

In between the dance of our days on earth as skeletons covered in flesh and blood and beauty.