Childbirth.

Menstruation Cycles.

Did I confuse you with the title? Often, for whatever reason, in this society I was raised in… when one thinks of Childbirth and Menstruation Cycles they are not immediately brought to a sense of beauty, awe, wonder.  More like, “Ew, Yuck, Let’s not talk about it, Ruins your body, Gross, Blood for seven days? Let’s take pills to stop this madness!!!  To stop this curse‘

I used to allow similar things to come out of my mouth.  One day, junior year of college 2008, I stopped taking my birth control and became a much calmer, more sane woman. Now I do not want this post to be a Pro or Anti Birth Control debate – I very much believe every human being chooses for themselves, but for me, it was the best decision I ever made.

Fast Forward to now, 2016, almost 29 years old, having just entered my favorite time of my Menstruation Cycle, I am so sensitive, I am so warm and soft and loving and flowing… and ohh yeah, I can feel that clock ticking, I can feel the surge of hormones running through my body, saying, “Baby, Baby, Baby” – it’s lovely! My body is perfectly primed- FROM NOTHING.. well from sperm and egg, to grow a human life in my body and bring it through in to this reality to experience human life.  Like I said…. the most beautiful thing… as I sit here in between typing to realize I am holding my belly, head bowed, tears flowing…

I had a vision the other day as I was sitting on my patio, sunshine warming my skin, reading my metaphysical lessons with my legs bent on the table spread open, when some sentence triggers me to close my eyes, look ups… and I was taken to a mental reality where I bear a child without pain.

Literally, no pain, sensation yes, but no pain, no medicine, no drugs, no knives, no tearing in to my body to extract the baby, just a deeply felt and allowed experience, with a pure mind – You can definitely say my practice of Vipassana has inspired a childbirth scenario like this.  As I sat there, enjoying that experience, it occurred to me how life changing this would be for human being and baby human beings as a species… I would be FULLY present, FULLY aware to this little being coming through, fully open, accepting, knowing, loving, and welcoming.

And then he, in my vision the little being was a he :), he would feel, even as a new born but throughout the rest of his life as well, that he had never caused me any pain, he wouldn’t have to carry with him ANY feeling, any thought, any ‘sin’, any guilt for causing the being who brought him in to this world any suffering, he would never have to ‘owe me’ for that.  He would be free.  He would know only that I loved him (on all levels, physically, spiritually, psychically)… he would know only that he was on purpose, right, meant to be, fully allowed.

…Now I understand that is a mental picture right now, and I also believe that anything the mind believes the body can conceive (haha good pun right ;))… the image of the monks who, in protest, sat in stillness and full awareness while their bodies burned – comes to mind often, if they could train their minds to do that, I can surely realize my mental vision.