What is the body? That shadow of a shadow of your love, that somehow contains the entire universe. — Rumi

There have been many moments in the past few months that I have felt this body is so confining.  I’ve wanted to rip open my chest and let all the love and light come pouring out.  There are moments when I cannot do enough stretching, yin yoga, back bend/chest openers, wiggling, dancing, to fully allow this love&light to come out, I’m curious what this is all about, what this is pointing towards or telling me.  I had not experienced it for a couple weeks but then I attending my first Sound Healing evening at Soul of Yoga in Encinitas on Wednesday night (June 17th), I again experienced the sensation of wanting to rip open my chest because there is something in there that was being contained that did not want to be contained any longer.  I went home that night contemplating what this feeling is, wondering what my body could possibly be trying to say to me and wondering if others feel this way.

Ah, then I was reminded, those artists… they get it.

The next morning I get to work in the lab at University of San Diego and my work-study student this summer says, “Jess! I saw this picture and I think you will really like it, it reminded me of the butterfly picture you had in lab a few months ago”

( I was obsessed with the picture for a few weeks in March, it was EVERYwhere)

… I took the phone from her, looked down at the picture I saw (below)… and I was STUNNED. Literally, I didn’t speak for a minute or so.  This artist (I don’t have the artist name unfortunately).. understood.  This is how I feel.  And again, reminding me the universe always delivers.  My work-study student was a cooperative component, a messenger, who brought this message my heart/mind were seeking to me after I Asked.  So I was stunned at the artwork perfectly expressing what I had just felt the night before AND that my work-study student delivered it to me such a short period later… what are the freaking ODDS?!  No coincidences, right? 😉

This human body – somehow CONTAINS the ENTIRE Universe.
Every ATOM bursting with light.

 The only thing I can think of right now about what this feeling is telling me is how to turn this knowledge and feeling of that in to my experience of my body, how to turn my body in to the lightest, most loving version of it that I can possibly in each moment of the day. Choice by choice, feeding it, nurturing it.  Or perhaps it’s my soul saying, HEY! Listen to me.  There is so much love in your heart, let it shine, Stop being stingy.  Go do what you love, Live in happiness, share the Joy.  This love, this light, THIS is who you really are.  

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