“You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection.”  Buddha

For the past two-and-a-half years in San Diego I have been an extroverted, people-lovin’, loud talkin’, fitness enthusiast and seminar junkie but in the past few months I have noticed a strong pull to go IN… leaving behind so many parts of me, or what I thought WERE me.  Months!  That’s a long time in my world where “transformation happens in an INSTANT” and where I have been so trained (so conditioned) to push through, get it done no matter how you feel, be in performance-mode, DO, DO, DO!!

I cannot seem to push anymore.  It feels like I am in a Savasana of my life.  One month, okay… but creepin on three months…? Oh, that’s waaaaaaay too long says my mind (I wonder where that thought came from?).

Last night, I was having a conversation in my head, this is how it went:

Forceful Jess: “Come on! You need to get movin’ again. You have to be done with all this sitting around ‘being’ stuff by now”

Lil Jess: “but I don’t want to!!”

… and to my shock, Forceful Jess did not answer, it was almost as if someone else stepped in, a gentle voice I had never heard or used for myself before (maybe Loving Jess?): “That’s okay, sweetheart… Take as long as you need, there really is no rush”.

And just.like.that. I was soothed, I was heard, I granted myself space to be exactly where I was at, really knowing there IS no rush and it all happens as it is supposed to.  I don’t think I’ve ever felt more love for myself that in that one little moment.

It was a profoundly simple, beautiful thing ❤

Be gentle with yourself.  Allow yourself to freely bloom.  Trust in the Divine Timing.